Late last year I won a gift card in an online auction. It was for some hypnosis sessions. They were pretty cool, very relaxing and they are helping me to lose some weight and break the cycle of fat, get thin, get fat, get thin. I get to listen to CDs each day and I settled down yesterday evening to do that. "small person, I need 30 mins of peace to listen to my tapes. Got it?" "Yes mom!" No going out, no one comes in...got it? "Yes mom"
15 mins later as I drift into relaxation ..."mom, can my friend come in to play? Mom! Mom! Mom, can you hear me? Can my friend come into to play? Mom, I'm talking to you". Hmmm
Then stomp stomp stomp up the stairs, I hear two small boys open my office door..."mom, can my friend come in?" I say nothing...so they proceed to tickle my feet to get me to wake up. What's the point eh? Maybe relaxation is for other people. Cd on Pause, life back on Play.
It's been an exhausting long long week, working 12 hours a day and whilst that is horrible there is another layer to it that made it nasty. There were no emergencies, no one was trapped in a mine shaft, no one had 46 minutes of air left...it was just that a volume of work was some how cranked to very loud. I'm reminded of that story about the frog in a pot. If you drop it in boiling water it will notice that for sure. If you put it in cold water and warm it slowly it doesn't notice it for a long long time. I think I am the frog in that pot and the water got my attention. It's a big pot and there are lots of us in it. I worry that frog soup is the future at work. I did some stuff to turn the heat down for me and frogs around me but weekends do see me puzzling how to break this cycle...as you are readling now.
Before my live hypno session the hypno lady asked a question from nowhere that is rattling around in my head..."do you count summers?". " sorry I don't understand what you mean" "do you count summers, how many more summers you might have on earth? Do you understand how little time there is in a lifetime? If you understand that you will focus on enjoying life, enjoying the summers. If you don't focus on that, and live busy, just doing the everyday and you miss an opportunity to enjoy life to the full"...do I count summers? Yes, sort of I guess. For 20 years I have known that the pursuit of wealth and status will not bring me happiness. What brings me happiness is the joy in a single day, that adds up to a joyful week that adds up to a joyful month, you get the idea.
I have tried to articulate this to people for years to help them live life to the full. I struggle to articulate it in a way that they can see past their concern that I am a anti establishment anarchist hippy...I'm not, I'm a hardworking person whose priorities include " me and mine" in equal or greater measure to paid work. I guess it's none of my business how other people choose to live their lives but having "got it" 20 years ago I feel compelled to pay that knowledge forward. Live your life, have fun. Sit in the sun and do nothing regularly.
So for today's joy small person and I are off to Niagara to ride water slides...not down the Falls. Then off to the botanical garden to buy seeds for the season ahead. Happy days
Happy days to all
Namaste
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